This is something I’ve been thinking about a lot lately. I’m not talking about material things. Yes, I have a whole list of ‘things’ I want but then I also have a simpler list, a more important list. I’ve felt down a lot lately. I’ve felt defeated and beaten and so sad. I’ve felt like these feelings could easily consume me. In the midst of all these feelings I also know I can’t and won’t let them. Thinking about what I want in life keeps me going. I might not get everything I want. More specifically, I might not get it the way I want it but if I don’t keep working and believing what will I be left with?
I’m starting to realise that my ability to not give up might be my biggest strength. There have been so many moments where I’ve wondered how on earth I’m going to go forward and even though I don’t have a clear path I’ve kept on moving. I’m going to celebrate that because it takes courage to push forward, and I refuse to let anyone tell me otherwise.
I’ve had a lot of cheerleaders my whole life. I’ve been supported by family and friends always. The last few weeks life has changed a bit and I’ve felt cheated by people who haven’t been there in the way I thought they would be. It’s confusing because I still know I’m loved and cared for but at the same time I’ve had to grow up and stand up for myself a lot lately. It’s taught me how important my own faith in myself is. It’s got me thinking about the things I want because these are the things that keep me motivated.
I want to be self-sufficient.
I want to be able to support the people I love.
I want to be supported by the people I love.
I want to create.
I want to help.
When what you want out of life is an idea that is bigger than a single goal, you are filled with a sense of purpose that is stronger than any outside force. So when you are feeling down, like you’ve hit the lowest of lows, ask yourself what you want out of life. Sit with those feelings. It is freeing to know what you want. Me and you, we can do anything. I know people say that all the time but think about it, you really can.
In the bad moments it’s okay to feel low. It’s okay to maybe drown in those feelings for a little while. Feel them and then take the time you need to regroup and come back and face life again. We always have that choice. You might not want to, you might not know how to, but you still can: you can do anything.
It starts here.
It starts now.
It starts with knowing what you want.
So I’m going to ask you, What do you want out of life? What is your list?